I m.......

I m a girl with a complicated heart and a simple mind...
I m nice to be with but yet hard to handle....
I have seen through many things as happenings around me....
I m just another princess who is waiting for her prince to ....
bring her back to the castle...
and live happily ever after...

Girls ROck!.... i Wish i m a Barbie...

Girls = Evils

Firstly we state girls equals to time and money..
Girls = Time * money
And all we know...time equals to money..
Time = Money..
Therefore,
Girls = Money * money
And because ..Money is the root of evils....
Money = |evils
And then,
Girls = |evils(s) -> root of evil sq...
And....we are forced to conclude....

Girls = EVIls

Sunday, October 10, 2004
6:06 PM

The story goes like this….

( guy),(gal) were classmates in Sec 3. J was a retained student, L was a easy-going gal, average type of gal, monitress of the class, hatred to go to Sec 3 class as it is the last class of the express due to some academic weakness in certain subjects. But however, she got used to it as time passed in the years of Sec 3 and 4.

J and L, seldom talked in class, well maybe as and when it needs to as hardly will have a common topic to talk with at first. Morever, J always absent from school or late. Thus, L did not have a very good impression of J. As this Sec 3 class is an Art Class, of which u should know every week will have 2 hrs of Art lesson, this is the time where J and L interact more often as the group of the class will like to sit at the side of the class and more free to have some chats. Most of the time J will not be bring the art stuffs to class, the L and gals in the class will normally lend to the him and the guys. Everything seems very normal to J and L as classmates. till one of the outing… Most of the people are exchanging the contacts (that time is pager no) as to meet and confirm the stuffs, J and L did too. The whole group is having fun that day, and from there J and L have know more about each other too. Though L still thinks that J is nt the type of people to be mixed with, of which she still finds that he is a Mr Nice guy and gentlemen as observed. After that day, things go per normal, just on and off L will receive some greeting msg from J, she never really treat it unusually, as she treat gals and guys the same…

A few months have passed, L had some problems with her family as well as some troubles involved in other things, she is depressed. J noticed it and msg her to know more and comfort her. L told J about the problems and troubles she was facing, she felt much better to share and talked to him. Even though, he knew that he aint able to help her solve the problems, but he was a good listener. J and L drew a nearer distance as good frens from that moment. Some days after that, rumors heard from J ‘s best friends that J secretly admire a person and that was L.

L did not know how to handle this situation, lucky the whole incident is being kept in low profile only the best frens of his knew it and did not spread across the class. But L felt weird and confused on this, of which an extremely different family background, the group of friends. Moreover, L was disappointed in bgr relationship, she understand how tough to maintain a relationship, betrayed, feeling hurt and upset. L would not want to get involved again. L did not response to his best frens, till one day while J was talking to her, he hinted about this incident. L gave an indirect ans to reject him, J accept the ans. He said would give more time to L. From then, they still remained as good fren. chat on phone and went out as a group at times.

Time passed, after mid year exam, term break, class outing is being organized . Whole class is out to have fun. J and L have a stronger bond and this special feelings in L started to grow in her heart, she felt that she cares for J, but just cant figure out and face herself in the path of relationship again, then she repeatedly ask herself if she can accept J as whom he is? Having hard time to straighten her thoughts, meanwhile J was constantly waiting for L’s reply to be his gf.

Finally, L had make up a decision to take up the relationship. But she actually listed a few conditions for this guy to follow. i) no more in gangs ii) no more fighting iii) have to come school regularly. The guy agreed, but he said to L that have to give him some time.

Things go perfectly fine with J and L at first, no quarrels. He tried to be in school everyday and not being late. After school, both J and L will go for revision. L will give tuition to J as he had missed the earlier classes.

Such happiness never stayed long. L is upset of what she see as what he behave. J promised to her that will not happened again anymore. Tthings settled for that incident. In a month’s time, similar things happened again. L is worried, yet angry. Even thought J is not hurt or fight with the others, he went down the the place with his friends. L is utterly disappointed on the things he promised and said. J did not explained for himself, he thought that L would understand him, as what he have done so far: going to school, not fighting with others( even he went down to the place, he is not involved). L asked for a break up, J was too stubborn and would not want to explain to L at all.

J’s best friend talked to L, but she was still not in the mood on that, J did not called or msg L. That was the last few days of the end of year term break, J never went to school at all for the rest of the week. School break term started.

L back to her usual self, worked hard during the holidays, trying to forget the matters. She hope that she can start afresh, and at this moment P ( guy fren) appeared. L likes to play with irc a lot, she chat online and keep her stay out of her boredom. P is one of the irc friends that she had, most of the time she will like to talk to him about her daily life and problems. He will like to give L some advise. P is also one of L’s god brother buddy, so from there know P better.

To L, P is a very perfect type of guy that most gals is longing for (include her), to her surprised, P told her god brother that he is interested in her. Initially, L thought that is meant to be a joke from him, she never took those words to heart. But after sometimes, P asked L personally on the matter. Thinking of starting afresh, she agreed to be with P. But that time, L is busy working during holidays; seldom have the time to meet up with P. Almost once a week that both can really took the time off to meet each other. Things are really fine with them, but P asked to broke off with L on the eve of 2000 ( millennium).

L wondered. Why these things happened? L asked P what exactly happened. P did not told her what is the reason. He just said, I want to break up. L was sad, who will think that on the eve of millennium such things would happen?
L asked her god brother, then she knew from him said that P was being asked to meet at somewhere with J and frens to settle some stuffs. L ‘s mind is blank, the first thing she can thought of is “why J have to do this things to P? Is it because he did not like P to be with me?”. L called J to questioned him, J said “nothing regards to you.”. L knew that there is definitely something is going on. She really cant figured.. heart broken.

It is the eve of millennium, L meet up with her frens, she was feeling moodly, supposing a great day ahead and new start of the year, such things happened. L tried to be calm and act normal in front of her friends. She still thinking that why J will do such things…
Counting down… 10.9…8…1

Happy 2000…

Back to school (sec 4) both J and L being promoted to the same class again, both of them did not talked in the class at all. Just having a wall between J and L. L still thought that is because what J did to P, P will have that decision

Time passed, prelim, O level… finally over. J and L still did not talked much, even there is, will be very simple type of greeting..

Both of them have their own lifestyle, L continue studying poly, J studying private… of which he dropped out sometime and went to NS…. After sometime (around 2yrs), one of the classmates throw a birthday party and invited some of the classmates to go, both J and L are invited. That was the first time meet up after 2years from Secondary school. Some tings already been put aside, they have some casual talk and telling each other what have they done thu the years. L could feel the care and concern from J even though is being after years, but the knot that in L heart regards on P’s matter still in her mind. After that meet up, J and L exchange of Hp number, so as for contacts… J sometimes will drop some greeting sms to L, and msg her sometimes as friend.

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There is a fashion called friendster, both J and L joined too. This is the time when both of them contact more often thu friendster. Both J and L have their bf/gf then, but they are keeping contact with each other to see if they are fine.
There are a period of time they did not contact each other again, J is going into NS while L is busy with school and work.
No news from each other for a year.

Suddenly, one day, J msg L and asked if she is fine. L replied . J called L and want to chat with her….. He said will like to tell her some stuffs. L agreed and chat with him, started off with some casual stuffs. Then he started to ask L how is she these years.

He toned down and told L what he wanted to say.. He said that some things he would like to say to L since Sec 4… but he did not. Dragged and did not know whether if he should tell L,
he started:
“That time when u mentioned to me of breaking up, I m too upset to answer or bother to explained, it is because I thought u would understand me, know me most. Why you never see what I have changed for you ? Why you only see those that I never changed? But I will not blame you as the difference of us, I don’t want you to worry for me anymore, I don’t want to be the burden to you. So I choose to let go, but I m really serious for you. I know that you have misunderstood me on why I look for P, but I did not mind. I cant stand P cheating on you, he is one of the member of the secret society too, he never tell you. I m too angry and disappointed of which why you will choose someone that cheat on you than rather honest with you. I fought with him, and told him to treat you better and don’t he dare to bully you again.”

L was stunned. She cant believe her ears, a deep misunderstanding. She felt so sorry of being wrong to J.

J added on:
“ telling you this is not to make you to get back with me, I will like to tell you than rather to keep it to myself of regretting not letting you know. I have failed to explained or let you understand the last time. I would not want to make the same mistake again. I just want to you to be careful in whatever you do, be happy always and take care of yourself ,that is what I asked for”

L remained silence. After that J tried to divert the topic to other stuffs, chatting for awhile, both put down the phone

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A series of misunderstanding, caused J and L to be depart and caused disappointment for both parties.. But after all, it is too late to save the situation from then, time won’t go back for their sake…

A word of advice: explanation and understanding is really very important. please do not like J and L…. it is bad to have regrets in your life

you make my life perfect-` >*[6:06 PM]
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