I m.......

I m a girl with a complicated heart and a simple mind...
I m nice to be with but yet hard to handle....
I have seen through many things as happenings around me....
I m just another princess who is waiting for her prince to ....
bring her back to the castle...
and live happily ever after...

Girls ROck!.... i Wish i m a Barbie...

Girls = Evils

Firstly we state girls equals to time and money..
Girls = Time * money
And all we know...time equals to money..
Time = Money..
Therefore,
Girls = Money * money
And because ..Money is the root of evils....
Money = |evils
And then,
Girls = |evils(s) -> root of evil sq...
And....we are forced to conclude....

Girls = EVIls

Saturday, October 30, 2004
7:46 PM

Stay at home for my revision today... heehee... seems i m so guai like that... (like real hor)... hmm well.. so far still can manage... so i think for my first paper...still nt so hard...Heard from one of the classmate that the marking grade is as follows:

50-59: Pass
61-69: Credit
70-79: Distintion
80-100: Higer Distinion

haha as i was looking at the grades.. not v.used to it..coz no more A.B.C.D grading le..but seems like putting in a nicer manner.. haha... 70above already got a distintion! hmmm i gonna aim high for that... first sem... first exam in the new school... hehe... =)

Waiting to hav my dinner soon, homecook dinner on sat... Normally will be dinner outside...as meeting my dear... too bad.. today i cant meet him le... feel kinda guilty oso...coz recently i have being busy with my work...course and school.. seems like having lesser time with him... Thus, after exam gonna make it Up~ I wanna go out..shop....play...eat..... ktv....tanning... and holidays.... I have alot alot of WanTs...

Today stayed at home whole day... looking after the Two LIttle Babies (WIn win and Qzai) at home.. haha v.funni.... v.Notti... keep running here and there.... the moment i was like... *humP*.. just ...."shout" across them... "Stop..Stop.!!" ..The two give me that..."gay-gay- Face"... then walked slowly and lay down... LOL... cannot make it...

Time to help out and do my revision.. ~

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Last day of my current job will be on the 10Nov.... hehe...b4 the holidays.. but on the other hand i need to start work on 16Nov... initially wanna start on 19Nov de..but the other side is v.busy so need to start work early there.... wel wel... so hav 6 days "holidays" at home... beta than nothing right?

Exam..... exam... Books.... FormuLas.... What is I m....Looking at..study on Memorise by hard... haiz.... haiz.... Xian... but no Chioce.. got To Go all the Way!! keep telling myself... okie...after this wk... i will be free...just endure..... haha... Right? Jun...Florence..and my Bf...God sis...already got some plans to go out le... *winkS*... haha hope time passed fast...hope everything just goes into my head ...

haha... ya...mayb i shd pray that i tackle on the right qns? keke... *evil grins*...
Okie...going to rest soon.. keep my blog short.. =)

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Thursday, October 28, 2004
5:23 PM

my dae? ya.. haha.. I m Late again.. so ProUd of myself..keke.. hee hee..Haiz.... tupid heavy rain caused jam .....as i taking bus, i m so xian.. kinda stuck in the jam.. ended up around 915am then reach office.. so rush that cant even buy my breakfast... so ... ask my dear flor help me buy a milo for me.. =D
lucky my in-charge came in even later than me.. he reach around 940am.. haahaa... so he nv say anything lo.. When he take his seat, i walked over... and holding the "envelop" and pass to him.... His reaction is a kind of weird and funny... asked :" ni bu yao gao le?" -> dunno why he ask me this oso.. i guess he asked me i dun wanna in the group? haha but oso nv really have much of reaction as the next sentence followed is:" let's go in the room and talk". Having the serious talk with him... i guess that is the procedures ba.. he ask what is the reason of leaving... becoz of..blah blah blah... told him that i don't really belong to that "coolzy,relax" environment ... really not get use to it... that conversation lasted for an hour... by then after that chat...not long after..flor was being ask to go into the room and hav a "chat" with him too.. haha....
So finally, i tendered my resignation letter le.. need 2 wk notice...but of which i m only going for around a week.. haha.. offset the leaves and holidays..... got to *wave bye bye to flor...my gd buddy and collegue*
It is a v.v.v.cold day.....so cold that even i put on my coat, my hands are icy cold.. having a "hot" meal-> yong tou fu in funan foodcourt and hav gossips with florence..haha i guess it is the time we can talk freely ... openly... =)
typing this blog... as i hav nothing to do...of which florence is busying on searching for her candidate to start work.... haha my turn to be slack today..waiting to off work now... time check? 5.30pm... hehe...
Tonite going back hav my homecook dinner... hehe..then study time... oso watch the S-Idol.. haha.....xian ar.. slpy weather...

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Office....

Ya... today is wedNesday... hmm i was late for my work... coz... overslpt... -_- but not too late... reach office at 9am....i shd start work at 830am... well... too bad...

That guy in-charge is back.... after a day of leave... hmm i submitted the report to him finally..and he have meeting with me on the weekly report. Guess what? as usual lo... he is like.. u shd hav do this.... to help in this... abit of nagging here and there.... lucky not so bad this round. Sad to say, my last week performance is really nt v.gd... a beri quiet week for me. Thus, felt like doing nothing, totally abit lost in doing my work.. don't know what to do at all.. then i slack for my days last wk...

My Assignment...

I called up my school regards on the assignment things... ThaNk god ! haha they say no worries as long as i got hand in the hard copy...markers only judge on the hardcopies...UnLEsS!!! they lost or my hardcopy went missing then will look at the softcopy... *pray hard*-> (though i m not a true chirstian/catholiczzz)... So this really lighten up my load in my heart... *shoo*....

Job..JObs...Jobs....

noW... come to the most exciting part..... of my day...hehe...
I got a call in the afternoon from "TECH PAC"(electronics company) which one of the companies that i send my resume to..on Product Specialist position... would like to hav an interview session tml... initially i cant make it as i have work till around 6pm..and they wanted me to go at 3pm.. i let them know the situation and at last..... thEy agreed~ haha meeting me tml at 630pm...alexandra... At that point of time, i m still thinking if i should go.. coz i m going for the 2nd interview today... well i think just to back myself up... i agreed to the TechPac first ba... as for the distance , it will be abit far from my home... Well..... now i shdn't think about it le...coz i will not be going there tml le.... u waN to Know WHy>>???

I got The JOB oFFer from the event Company today on the spot when meeting up with the boss of the company!!! haha... i m so happy... but oso abit surprised.. the Boss is so not like boss...i guess he is only at his late 20s... abit beng....in a way....smoker... =I But overall, a v.friendly guy.. and the girl that i will be learning my stuffs from is a v.cute and funni lady... degree grad... hope will work well with her... Ya my job scope....? mainly will be as an event co-ordinator... aliasing with customer.. at the start will need to know to do all those admin (PO,Invoicing,Quotation) stuffs.... hmm i can say quite general... As for the pay... i m quite sastified with it...coz it is slightly better than my current one, on top of that company will pay for my hp bill... (once confirmed)... hehe...+ pay adjustment!!As for the rest of benefits...same as what gov have given to workers. At least now i no need to worry on my sales target for the week le....

So now, i m trying to think of what to type in the resignation letter? it seems like nothing for me to type at all... haiz.... going to tender my letter tml ...hope by mid nov i will joining the other company......

~ feeling happy.....but today i nv study much leh... =( tml hav to work extra hard le..... nice weather to slp now...raining heavily at my place here....

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Monday, October 25, 2004
11:55 PM

hmm well normally my Monday is super blue due to the weekly meeting with this "guy" in-charge... to avoid any nagging from him today.... i decided not to hand in the weekly report to him...lol... well he oso nv say anything wor... then lucky lo... at first i wanna have my lunch then submit to him...but after sometime just.... dun like to do so... hmm well i oso dunno why.. heheh....

My Dear flor nv Come to work in the morning... Half day... Flo=>slp till shiok shiok hor.. hehe... piggy u ar.. leave mi alone in the office again... wel wel... anyway meet up with her for lunch at Delifrance... hehe =)

Got a piece of gd news in the noon around 2pm, hehe the event company that i have went to interview the other day gave me a call again.... arranging for the 2Nd interview!!! yah!yah!... so Happy... is on Wed... Hmm... wel wel...hope to get it!! *crossed finger*

Going back around 7pm... slack around ...watch tv... till around 10pm.. start to study for my stuffs... doesnt go v.well... only manage to study around 2 chapters(management)... hmm better than nothing... hahaha...

Finance=> Mon... 7 chapters
Management=> Thur... 11 Chapters
Businessz Decision(excel..maths)=>Fri ..8 chapters....

wel wel wel..... 1 more week to go... got to buck up.....

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Hmm... ya... still nt really in the mood... still v.worried on my assignment thing... (15marks of the whole!!) heart pain...if really got 0 marks... haiz....

Nt feeling that well today... gals problems lo.. haiz.... going to work at 1pm.. till 5pm..time just passed by so smoothly as just helping to do some keying of the registeration details...keke... still not bad hor...slacker.... me... again....

Went to SlS to meet up with my dear.... before that went to cybermind(my last time wk place) look for my ex collegues...but too bad...some of them already left... and my Fav collegue among all Kat is working in another shop oso....went over to look for her, she helped out with her fren's shop... heard that another ex-collegue of mine Jess oso joining her... Poor Mr Chia(Boss of cybermind) gonna shortage of staffs le... well.. they find that there is not much prospect in Cybermind ba... nt that kind gd benefit given.. But hor, come to think about it, actually the pay of cybermind already better to some other shops in SLS le... coz my bf's collegue shop..pay is super parthetic.. -_-

Went dinner with dear, his sis and Zhi xiong to KFC.. tried that Tom Yam chicken set meal... hmm is a dissapointment.. dun realli like it... is like in-between the crispy and the original taste.. so i find it weird... i think i will stick to my original taste next time...

Going back home is a "stress" matter... today is SUNDAY... and the bus i taking it passed by Little India... ar... Black Ants... all over... and so squezzyz..z.z.z.z.z...z .. my dear and me stand the whole journey from Selegie till my house bus stop... -_-... soo poor thing... Anyway, the following Sundays i will try not to take 147 if possible...coz Deevapali is coming... so it will be so scary to take the same bus with all of " them "....

Going to slpz le.... v.tired... is already 1am... tml is monday blues again.. pls crossed my fingers... hope that nothing bad is gonna happen tml....

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Sunday, October 24, 2004
11:57 AM

I m Supper.... irritated.... pissed with my sch... DEAKIN UniVersiTy... Just received a mail from one of the Lecturer regards on one of the hand-up on the Assignment.. Guess What? i submitted it WrongLy!!! for the first assignment it is supposed to hand in that way and the second assignment have to hand-in in another MAnNNER!!! gosh... and it already closed for submittionzzz... help helphelp!!~~ Drop him a mail on that issue.. hope he get back a gd solution to me.... *crazy*.... haiz... just dun understand if they can just standardize the HoPe Stupid SysTem...

Didn't get gd slp ysterday nite... slp quite late...firstly is study for my exam... secondly got a few sms from my ex... haiz.... suddenly got weird msg frm him... Y? hmm i oso dunno... and in the end.. early in the morning 4++ he drop me a msg again sayin.. hmm.. shdnt saying all that .. he guess he was drank... Anyway, just felt someting not right in some manner... i m already v.vexed on many stuffs.. haiz.. just all things keep rushing into my mind... How i wish i can just throw away whatever stuffs in my mind? starting to clear all the history or the cache in my mind if possible? i DouBT sooooo....

...going to work soon.. then meet up with my dear..... having heavy hearts now..

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Saturday, October 23, 2004
11:35 PM

hmm today is a Sat... ya...lonely Sat who stayed at home for my exam and study... in the morning went to work in the enrichment centre.... back in 1pm and slack...watch vcds... Having a noon nap till around 7pm..(pig hor), feeling tired ... but have to get some study by today u see... another 1 wk more to exam..

Today nv met up with my dear.. some incidents happened, tiffs.....both of us not in the mood.. will be meeting up tml... a few daes nv meet up with him le..kinda miss him...... but well... sometimes will hav caused some unhapiness when meet up oso thats is oso xian.. I guess it is how the relationship life goes... right?

Its a rainy daes for the two nites, seems like my mood now.. some happy /sad memories just pop up at the back of my mind... Thinking of my past.., on my older school days from sec till now... some recaps of the luffter and sorrow being through... kind of emotion right now...feel like... (-_-)~.. dunno why.. but just feel so down suddenly..

Haiz.. looking back, sometimes still wonder if some of the things in the past that i have done, both right and wrong.. mayb i shd or shdn't done... though is over, but it will still leave in your memory.. hard to forget. ..

~~Back to my study nw.... listening to my 93.3fm... the companion of my study buddy....

Btw, change my bloggie skin... give me some sugguestion to make it better? hmm still looking for improvement.... =) thanks...

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Friday, October 22, 2004
1:45 AM

Having an extreme boring day in the office... hmm getting like an routine le..LOL.. but having a few jokes meanwhile..on some "aunties" business...hmm the communication between the aunties and me...really cannot make it...haha coz.... they will keep repeating and repeating the same old things over and over again...not one Aunty..but auntiEs... rush off after work for an "interview" session..but turned out not what i want.. asking me if i wanna be financial advisor,receptionist or telemarketeer.. hmm..rejected the offer and meet up with shanlin for a dinner session...

Supposing met at 7...haha both of us late... =X ... do some window shopping a PS... hanging around... around 8 then head towards to..cafe cartel.. It is sooo crowded event though is 8 okie... scary... having long ques for the payment oso... i hav a set dinner, while she have a salad... we really hav a good chats...all kinda of chats i shd say, but mainly on our job stuffs...nasty and naggy boss.. working environment... etc... we are like those... "unhappy" workers sitting around in somewhere and chat about work... heehee...

After dinner, around 9++... having an idea of going to Mr Bean... => ya..Shanlin.. is Mr beAn.." she says: aiyo..u and carol..same pattern de...coffee after dinner...".. hmm guess we are at Ps and is our "tradition" ba... scroll towards to selegie and order a drink... we have our topics continued again....
Taking cabbie back after that.... take a rest and do some editing on my current blog... hmm v.diff from my last one... still thinking to improve on it.. =)

v.tired but dun feel like slping ar.....

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Wednesday, October 20, 2004
5:53 PM

Haha... well today is being "annonuced" as no Leave is approved!~ coz Canon people will be coming to install...stuff and training session... arg... make it such a big hoo-haa matter...But GueSs what? nothing is really being done in the end...
Ya.. Canon people did came and our Dear It Tech John came too ... just to help install s/w drivers and stuffs... from 12pm-2pm ++ yet nv hear anything from them.. in the end heard from both of them, they cant do much today as the actual stuffs are not installed!! haiz....sigH...

Though my collegue tabao the lunch, but the whole day not feeling full...LOL..keep munching for food...snacks.. snacks and more snacks...hehe.. growing fat le..

Btw, Jun will not be meeting mi and shanlin tml le...due to some church stuffs... so ended up me and ShanLin go Par Tok le...at PS...cartel Cafe... Anyway, sorry ar Jun cant go out next week...my exam is the week after so have to stay at home and be guai guai.. havnt touch my books much ... i guess is last min work again..somemore nowadays not so much energy and motivation..unlike sec sch and poly... got classmates to organize study group hor.. thinking of the old days... haiz.. so different wor...

~ waiting for my class now.....

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Went for interview ysterday... at Macpherson.. on this position : Admin cum Event Co-ordinator... sound interesting, but is a 5.5 days work... Hm... payout not bad... just on the timing 930-630pm..just wonder if really selected should i taking up? coz the classes on wkdays will start at 7-715pm.. hmm haiz... How? but is quite challenging and the interview is still going on.... till early nov then will know the results...i guess % v.slime ar... But i quite like the job scope...coz will be working independently on my own then rather being "nag" by others.... =D One good things is the distance of this company of which, onli around 20-30mins from my house... super near... hehe..

Lets wait.... but meanwhile is still looking out for other jobs too.. hehe might be going for another interview this Thurs... wanting to interview this month then get ready after my exam ...and "run away" from the current one... heehee of coz hav to see if any company wants to take me in lo...

Anyway, dropping the Idea of going thru the Berries Teaching course le... v.tiring these few days and i m think if i taking up the course, i will need to commit for 6mths to teach... even though is part time basis, but just afraid... if i taking any job on 5.5days ar.. then i m be busy like duno what le... LOL.... so will be stopping the course from today.....

Trying to get myself to buck up on my exam, but just dun feel like it... i m such a slacker.... -_-.....

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Monday, October 18, 2004
11:57 PM

MoNDAe... getting to hate monDae.... coz monday morning... always make me angry.. guess what?? is the time when hand in the weekly report..

*Work*.... SickEning HIM

ArGhh.. today nearly wanted to shout at my this guy in-charge....*sick*.. early in the morning sit down and listen to his kind of "lecture" for 1hr ++++!!!!.. wah liew.. most irritating part is keep saying that .." i m' not pin-pointing at anything...blah blah blah...."... He is So "nIao" and calculative that even say our lunch break we have over an hour... WhiCh we Never... if there is ... a few mins mayb... He only sees that we are late..but will nv prasied us if we only use our 30mins BreAk... so Frastruated~~~ Then... i told him that ..well sometings is easier to be said then do, no definite things that it will happen( sales target)... He keeps saying when u do this, u will get this... Ended up.. i surrendered... i v.pek chek le...just said.. " i will see what i can be done, if not... well... i think this is nt suitable for me"...

Haiz... so xian right.. make me feel to "escape "from this company... but just that, everybody are v.nice pple, and the lady boss... dun wanna leave at this time due to her health conditions... But, i cant stand this kind of " nagging" now and then.. my ears are having ZzzzzzzZzzz sound le...LOL...

Took additional 1 more day leave for my study... hmmm well oso wanna rest more at home for preparation lo..another things is to adjust myself from work or rather see "HIM" less....keke

*Interview*

Glad to receive one of the call from companies that i send in my resume to apply for job, despite that i m having work on 5 days office hours, this company willing to arrange the interview after my work... *touched*... haha is an event codinator cum admin position... it is an event company... thus, will be meeting them tml... kinda excited...but at the same time ...weird feelings lo... keep thinking... What if? i m selected? how? what If ? i need to quit? .... haiz... *headache*

*Exam*

Ya...ya... my exam is round the corner..but.... but... see the "dictionary thick" books, kinda turned me off.... how how? y slacks? lol..... i got to wear that kind of Jap Head Bends.." Jia You" on my head le...hahahha

~crossed fingerssss.....hope tml interview will go smoothly~~~

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Sunday, October 17, 2004
10:50 PM

Hm .. sometimes since i blog... Having a busy week ...tired... sick... thats why nv log online when i back home... The moment step at home.. tat is like either wee hours or i m too tired to touch my computer le... NOthing big happen during the week.. thur... fri... i watched Resident evil with my dear... well.. kind of boring story line... the storying like ongoing and keep going of the repeated stuffs.. Shd have another coming up ba....

Feeling sick since thurs~~~ ya again.. so weak hor.. this time round is having fever... minor one..for these days .. due to? groWing of my WiSdOm Tooth... lol... but xian wor.. haiz.... sickening...

Sat - Went for the training at the enrichment centre in the morning.... driving in the noon... classes in the evening... then went to meet my dear... and frens.. for KTV... actually already quite tired..but still stay till 2am++ then go home.. of which my sunday class is 9am!! haiz.... again panda eyes on tOday... =I

Officially, today is my first day of working in the enrichment centre.. lucky me.. not much of parents or kids giving me probs...doing data entry for the reg forms for the whole day... wel wel... Time passed v.fast and knock off... As i was super tired... went home striaght.. and dinner at home... going to slp now.. hehe so long nv slp so earli le... =)

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Wednesday, October 13, 2004
6:06 PM

everybody went back...besides me and flo le... lol.. she is going off soon in mins time... office alone soon... welL, no choice.. my class Start at 7PM ar... overall still quite happy as finally office hour is over....

Ysterday that teacher training is an interesting session, having fun. We learn to story tell, acting of stuffs which are childrens' favrourites... The rest of the people are very friendly and kind. The whold training session is around 18 of us, only 1 GUy!! and the rest are gals/ladies.. He is the outstanding one, and morever... He really lOok Cute, young and that kinda sunshine boy haha..(my dear shdnt be seeing my blog de ba, if yes..pls dun kill me)... *wiNks*...

Later having the Management class again... hope that today will not left 2 student again after the BreAk... its kind of demoralizing ar.... Esp, exam is round the corner le... havnt really study for this stupid module.. the text book is thick as dictionary and all words inside. Study and memorise all the theories.. -_-

Anyway, i got all my exam and my tp exam leaves approved by my in-charge~~~ first week of Nov.. half of the week is on leave...KEKEKEkekekekekekekekek.....*evil luff*, and what is next is on the 2nd week of Nov, there are 2 more days of public holidays~~ Month of Nov should be a fast moving one... =)

V.soon... going for class le.. ...zzZzzz

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Tuesday, October 12, 2004
4:39 PM

well these few days have been feeling slpy and tired.... for today is even worse after having a heavy breakfast with flo in BK... haha being so long nv wake up early for breakfast liao... normally only will grab and munch with some snacks...

Never doing much things in the office for the whole morning, i feel that i really slack..... don't know what to do to keep myself occupied... only do some cold calls to a few companies and continue my slacking mood.

Have a simple lunch as we don't feel hungry, thus I went to Cold storage buy the CaMbeLL soups and the Bread frm Delifrance. cook in office... Really power..~~ delicious xia... After having that, my dear collegue, having her ice-cream whereas for me i munching my chips...i guess we don't feel fuLL? or i think is becoz our mouth feel like exercising ba... =)
Now is 4.40 le... v.tired... another 1 more hour to off work...excited coz later going for the teacher training course.... dunno what is exactly about..

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Sunday, October 10, 2004
6:06 PM

The story goes like this….

( guy),(gal) were classmates in Sec 3. J was a retained student, L was a easy-going gal, average type of gal, monitress of the class, hatred to go to Sec 3 class as it is the last class of the express due to some academic weakness in certain subjects. But however, she got used to it as time passed in the years of Sec 3 and 4.

J and L, seldom talked in class, well maybe as and when it needs to as hardly will have a common topic to talk with at first. Morever, J always absent from school or late. Thus, L did not have a very good impression of J. As this Sec 3 class is an Art Class, of which u should know every week will have 2 hrs of Art lesson, this is the time where J and L interact more often as the group of the class will like to sit at the side of the class and more free to have some chats. Most of the time J will not be bring the art stuffs to class, the L and gals in the class will normally lend to the him and the guys. Everything seems very normal to J and L as classmates. till one of the outing… Most of the people are exchanging the contacts (that time is pager no) as to meet and confirm the stuffs, J and L did too. The whole group is having fun that day, and from there J and L have know more about each other too. Though L still thinks that J is nt the type of people to be mixed with, of which she still finds that he is a Mr Nice guy and gentlemen as observed. After that day, things go per normal, just on and off L will receive some greeting msg from J, she never really treat it unusually, as she treat gals and guys the same…

A few months have passed, L had some problems with her family as well as some troubles involved in other things, she is depressed. J noticed it and msg her to know more and comfort her. L told J about the problems and troubles she was facing, she felt much better to share and talked to him. Even though, he knew that he aint able to help her solve the problems, but he was a good listener. J and L drew a nearer distance as good frens from that moment. Some days after that, rumors heard from J ‘s best friends that J secretly admire a person and that was L.

L did not know how to handle this situation, lucky the whole incident is being kept in low profile only the best frens of his knew it and did not spread across the class. But L felt weird and confused on this, of which an extremely different family background, the group of friends. Moreover, L was disappointed in bgr relationship, she understand how tough to maintain a relationship, betrayed, feeling hurt and upset. L would not want to get involved again. L did not response to his best frens, till one day while J was talking to her, he hinted about this incident. L gave an indirect ans to reject him, J accept the ans. He said would give more time to L. From then, they still remained as good fren. chat on phone and went out as a group at times.

Time passed, after mid year exam, term break, class outing is being organized . Whole class is out to have fun. J and L have a stronger bond and this special feelings in L started to grow in her heart, she felt that she cares for J, but just cant figure out and face herself in the path of relationship again, then she repeatedly ask herself if she can accept J as whom he is? Having hard time to straighten her thoughts, meanwhile J was constantly waiting for L’s reply to be his gf.

Finally, L had make up a decision to take up the relationship. But she actually listed a few conditions for this guy to follow. i) no more in gangs ii) no more fighting iii) have to come school regularly. The guy agreed, but he said to L that have to give him some time.

Things go perfectly fine with J and L at first, no quarrels. He tried to be in school everyday and not being late. After school, both J and L will go for revision. L will give tuition to J as he had missed the earlier classes.

Such happiness never stayed long. L is upset of what she see as what he behave. J promised to her that will not happened again anymore. Tthings settled for that incident. In a month’s time, similar things happened again. L is worried, yet angry. Even thought J is not hurt or fight with the others, he went down the the place with his friends. L is utterly disappointed on the things he promised and said. J did not explained for himself, he thought that L would understand him, as what he have done so far: going to school, not fighting with others( even he went down to the place, he is not involved). L asked for a break up, J was too stubborn and would not want to explain to L at all.

J’s best friend talked to L, but she was still not in the mood on that, J did not called or msg L. That was the last few days of the end of year term break, J never went to school at all for the rest of the week. School break term started.

L back to her usual self, worked hard during the holidays, trying to forget the matters. She hope that she can start afresh, and at this moment P ( guy fren) appeared. L likes to play with irc a lot, she chat online and keep her stay out of her boredom. P is one of the irc friends that she had, most of the time she will like to talk to him about her daily life and problems. He will like to give L some advise. P is also one of L’s god brother buddy, so from there know P better.

To L, P is a very perfect type of guy that most gals is longing for (include her), to her surprised, P told her god brother that he is interested in her. Initially, L thought that is meant to be a joke from him, she never took those words to heart. But after sometimes, P asked L personally on the matter. Thinking of starting afresh, she agreed to be with P. But that time, L is busy working during holidays; seldom have the time to meet up with P. Almost once a week that both can really took the time off to meet each other. Things are really fine with them, but P asked to broke off with L on the eve of 2000 ( millennium).

L wondered. Why these things happened? L asked P what exactly happened. P did not told her what is the reason. He just said, I want to break up. L was sad, who will think that on the eve of millennium such things would happen?
L asked her god brother, then she knew from him said that P was being asked to meet at somewhere with J and frens to settle some stuffs. L ‘s mind is blank, the first thing she can thought of is “why J have to do this things to P? Is it because he did not like P to be with me?”. L called J to questioned him, J said “nothing regards to you.”. L knew that there is definitely something is going on. She really cant figured.. heart broken.

It is the eve of millennium, L meet up with her frens, she was feeling moodly, supposing a great day ahead and new start of the year, such things happened. L tried to be calm and act normal in front of her friends. She still thinking that why J will do such things…
Counting down… 10.9…8…1

Happy 2000…

Back to school (sec 4) both J and L being promoted to the same class again, both of them did not talked in the class at all. Just having a wall between J and L. L still thought that is because what J did to P, P will have that decision

Time passed, prelim, O level… finally over. J and L still did not talked much, even there is, will be very simple type of greeting..

Both of them have their own lifestyle, L continue studying poly, J studying private… of which he dropped out sometime and went to NS…. After sometime (around 2yrs), one of the classmates throw a birthday party and invited some of the classmates to go, both J and L are invited. That was the first time meet up after 2years from Secondary school. Some tings already been put aside, they have some casual talk and telling each other what have they done thu the years. L could feel the care and concern from J even though is being after years, but the knot that in L heart regards on P’s matter still in her mind. After that meet up, J and L exchange of Hp number, so as for contacts… J sometimes will drop some greeting sms to L, and msg her sometimes as friend.

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There is a fashion called friendster, both J and L joined too. This is the time when both of them contact more often thu friendster. Both J and L have their bf/gf then, but they are keeping contact with each other to see if they are fine.
There are a period of time they did not contact each other again, J is going into NS while L is busy with school and work.
No news from each other for a year.

Suddenly, one day, J msg L and asked if she is fine. L replied . J called L and want to chat with her….. He said will like to tell her some stuffs. L agreed and chat with him, started off with some casual stuffs. Then he started to ask L how is she these years.

He toned down and told L what he wanted to say.. He said that some things he would like to say to L since Sec 4… but he did not. Dragged and did not know whether if he should tell L,
he started:
“That time when u mentioned to me of breaking up, I m too upset to answer or bother to explained, it is because I thought u would understand me, know me most. Why you never see what I have changed for you ? Why you only see those that I never changed? But I will not blame you as the difference of us, I don’t want you to worry for me anymore, I don’t want to be the burden to you. So I choose to let go, but I m really serious for you. I know that you have misunderstood me on why I look for P, but I did not mind. I cant stand P cheating on you, he is one of the member of the secret society too, he never tell you. I m too angry and disappointed of which why you will choose someone that cheat on you than rather honest with you. I fought with him, and told him to treat you better and don’t he dare to bully you again.”

L was stunned. She cant believe her ears, a deep misunderstanding. She felt so sorry of being wrong to J.

J added on:
“ telling you this is not to make you to get back with me, I will like to tell you than rather to keep it to myself of regretting not letting you know. I have failed to explained or let you understand the last time. I would not want to make the same mistake again. I just want to you to be careful in whatever you do, be happy always and take care of yourself ,that is what I asked for”

L remained silence. After that J tried to divert the topic to other stuffs, chatting for awhile, both put down the phone

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A series of misunderstanding, caused J and L to be depart and caused disappointment for both parties.. But after all, it is too late to save the situation from then, time won’t go back for their sake…

A word of advice: explanation and understanding is really very important. please do not like J and L…. it is bad to have regrets in your life

you make my life perfect-` >*[6:06 PM]
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Thursday, October 07, 2004
10:45 PM

today.... hmm started off quite well... u know why? coz my That Guy in-charge came in around 10plus... thus, got some mental preparation of the "nagging" stuffs. Indeed, the moment he came.... throw all those qns to me and ask me to complete it.. As i have already got myself prepared... thus everything still quite okie....

Having a busy day in the office today... but seems to be lack of mood... duno why have been feeling blues since early this week, at first i thought is becoz of my recovering of the illness... but seems it is not the case... Dunno whats went wrong... Work? stuDies? or otheRs?

Work have being giving me problems ar.. nt reali that smooth as u all know.. the collegues and the lady boss are really gd.. mayb just one Particular person... Sales target for this mth shdnt be a prob as already caught a big fish.. afterall is helping my collegue, but still entitled 30% of it.. nt too bad le.. today, manage to have 2 more candidate to start work~ yuppie... the motivation is slightly increasing.... but the moral is still v. low... Dun feel stable in this company... what shd i do?!

Studies... OMG... u noe what... i got 2 assignment to be hand in this sun.. well .How IS the ProGreSs? haha... well.. my stats excel project is onli half way done.. my grp member and me is slacking ar... coz is not reali alot of things to be done.. the other project is a online assignment of finance, part 1: 600 words of answering of 2 qns ...kind of lame as ..they ask "How u Think is Finance... how it is being quantified???", part 2: 28 mcq qns on a case studies... Haiz.. just done with the 28 mcq... 100 words for the qns.. 500 words more to go... HOpe that someone can help me to lighten my workload... feeling stress....

Others.. i m having mood swings.. but definitely not pms... i think my emotions really change fast.... one moment can be v.happy.. next moment might be v.quiet and sad... Getting jealous easily of some minor stuff with my bf... gosh.. so not me... -_-
help~~~!!

you make my life perfect-` >*[10:45 PM]
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Wednesday, October 06, 2004
5:50 PM

welL.. time check now is 5.50pm... my ears.. are tired... being nagged for the whole day... just 5 mins ago... he have the last sentence with me of the day...: " so Tomorrow ar, rem to do this.... blah blah blah..." i m kind of ignored.... -__- cant StAnd It!!! but.. the day is over... i will be able to have moment of slience... hope things will get better tml..... *v.xian*

Is time to go back.... hehe.. =) going to meet my dear for dinner le.... *yuMmY*

you make my life perfect-` >*[5:50 PM]
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What A Day to be when a Person kEep nagging u for what hav to be done? what shd be done?Hello there.. i know what i need to be done, just please let me off by not nagginG? Goodness.. my this Guy in-charge.. i m reali cant stand him .... the moment i sit on my table when i reach office.. then he started his "naggy" business... till 1++ ... which is now... *peace*... finally... i guess he will be continue again when he is back later...

Frustrated... angree... like so hard for me to do my stuffs .... gdness... help me.... I m so Trapped in the work.. so xian with the contrOLing Power that This Guy is... argHH... Getting v.irritated.....

wAnting to get out of the office.... *closed my EarS*.. hear no Evils....

~~~ to be continue......

you make my life perfect-` >*[2:28 PM]
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Tuesday, October 05, 2004
1:04 AM

just back frm Jun Jie(above- my ex-boss son) 's 1 st yr old bday at tanah merah safra.. v.tired now.. anyway having fun there.. these are the 2 pics taken of this bday boy... cute hor.. but he is abit stone stone after a long day... *eyes closing*... zZzz .... me too.... -_-

you make my life perfect-` >*[1:04 AM]
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Monday, October 04, 2004
1:35 AM

see any changes in my bloggie? hehe.. today v.free ar, tats y sit down and put up somemore stuffs for moi bloggie... nice Ma? i m quite sastify with my master piece...haha

today went for my 2nd training for my neW job at this enrichment centre.. well everything getting abit on hand liao... actually the tasks are very general.. not v.difficult. Quite relax yet can learn many stuffs from the teachers there...

HaPPy & Surprised.. the school principal ( the person who interviewd me the other time) walked towards me and ask me hows everything? He passed me one booklet in paper form and ask me... " can u read this page to me?"... i was like thinking... "huh? chinese oral here? hmm i thought i m here not for this?".. But anyway, no harm reading..i thought he wanted to test my chinese language skills ba, so just read lo.. After reading, he told me that if i was interested to teach in the enrichment centre, not that kind of MOE teacher, but to be a assistant teacher in Berries ( as 1 class will have 2 teachers, 1 forcus in teaching, the other will be help out the students). OmG~ i was kind of surprised~ really me? are you kidding? Then he told me that of coz is not that easy to be one, got to go thu a training program, which is held mid this month. He invited me to this training course, i agreed. I never dreamt that things will be so good to me ....
Of coz, it is not a confirmed case of which that i can be certified, but i will try my Best~~

Went to hav my hair trim today in the evening, dun see any difference... lol . just feel slightly thinner and neater i guess.. coz my bf nv say anything. so i suppose is a v.normal one... hehe... i dun think i would bear to cut short for the time being, wanna keep my hair long... since... pri sch till now the length of my hair is around shoulder length, kind of lazy and wouldnt got the time to maintain it in the past.. Now? trying to be nt so lazy lo, tats y... Always envy those gals with long hair with Big Curls... hehe. *hope my Hair grow Faster...*

Zzz... slping time again....

you make my life perfect-` >*[1:35 AM]
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Sunday, October 03, 2004
1:57 AM

Ya.. today is Sat( hmm can consider Sum oso).. Wakey early in the morning... Yes! early in the morning even i supposed to be on 5 days week... Because .. I m having a job training for my new part time job.. Have to be in the work place at 930am, what is best is the place is super near my place.. around 10mins(ard 4 bustop) from my place~

I m abit early to be there, a lady who is ard my age who is oso a part time there on weekdays, guide and teach me the procudures on the job, some of the info on the courses(as they are an enrichment centre)... Quite interesting, she showed me around. The place is like a kindergarden, got story telling room, art /crafts room.. etc. The only thing that is abit hard to catch up is the memorised the course info, as there is many levels (N1-P5).. need to know the fees, what is in the package and so on... * hav to do "homework" on that le *.... Now then i realized that the education level is getting higher, as i go thu the materials for the K2, gosh~~ it is like our Pri 1-2 work lo.. -_- .. poor kidz... stress~

I left the place around 1230pm as most of the stuffs for the day already done more or less, tml will hav another session with another gal to learn other stuffs... keke... =) feeling good, and excited.

Home around 1245pm, hav my lunch... rest a while then go school again... Meeting my bf after work.As planned, getting the " White Chicks" movie ticx and meet him at sls.. My class ended early today, thus wanna walked to bugis, u all shd know ..is a near distance... i take my time and scroll there, coz dun wan to reach sls too early. A kinda "suay" u know, one of my slipper string broken as i walked and reach bugis... arhghgh.... and is that kinda toe clip type, the part it broken is the clip. No choice have to get a new pair... haiz.. then dragged my slipper... and feet into bugis, went up to level 3 "the edge" to hunt for nice slippers... I ended up in a v."straw" material shop, and saw many cute cute Straw type of slippers and bag... and the slippers are on Sale~~ haha guess how much? is OnLy Ten BuckS! Grab one pair of it and changed. I got myself a Straw Bag . at $15~. My PocKet got abit lobang after step out of the shop... haha....

Got the tix and go and meet my dear... have our dinner in BK and catch the 930pm show... The show is beriBeri crappy and funni... but i find the story plot is still lack of someting.. rather only forcus on the part in the entertaining .. Afterall, good show... should go and watch if u are feel like realising yourself... Like the theme song alot...gonna find out who sung that and the title... anybody got any IdEa?

Back home around 12++... gonna slp soon.. eventhough tml no morning class.. hehe can slp abit late.. training at 130pm... GoNna... slp soon.... Or Or Kun le....

you make my life perfect-` >*[1:57 AM]
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Saturday, October 02, 2004
2:08 PM

WinWIn 2 Yr Old BdaY~

Yesterday is my Bao Bei Winwin 2yrs Old bdays... wah so fast another yr had passed... she is getting older le... hmm count by Dogs year she is 14 this yr..hehe teenage oh. . Never really celebrate much this year... got a cake for her and invite her "frens" to come over, my god sis, my bf, my aunty.. haha... some of the pics are taken as below...




My sweetie wearing bikiniz..Sexy~~~, and q-zai my boy boy wearing beach wear.. SooOOo handsome and retro xia~~... See that "piggy" softie on top? is the bday present for her... having fun, till late nite they went back.. This two "xiao-gua" already v.tired... Zzz...

you make my life perfect-` >*[2:08 PM]
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